Life could not be any more busy then one would want. I have been sick for the last 2 weeks and am finally feeling better... minus the fact that the awesome (really really really TERRIBLE) cough that I have had for about a week now has popped out a few ribs and I am in tons of pain all day, well until I go see the chiropractor tomorrow. I'm a bit scared, because I'm in so much pain, but I've popped a rib before and he fixed it in an instant! Woohoo!!! Love him! ha! :)
But life is pretty crazy right now, between being sick, early morning school and late night work I thought I might die! But now that I am feeling better I think it'll be tons better! School isn't too bad, I'm going on my 3rd week and I think I'm getting more excited, either that or more stressed out ha! The one thing that is pretty cool about school is that I have all the same people in all of my classes, so we're all already friends! So thats nice and fun!
Work is ok... its not too fun when your sick, but it's not terrible. The working till 7pm every night is a huge difference from what I am used to. I still just really wish that I had my old job, my personal assistant job... when I made $15/hr, could take whenever I needed off and pretty much was my own boss sorta. Ugh... I think about it and it makes me wanna cry, I'm making practically nothing and if I need a day off I have to try and find someone to cover for me... which so far hasn't been the easiest thing. I REALLY hate it.... it stresses me out, because I think of all the trips I wanna do... St George with Chris and our friends... Vegas.... California.... Cruise.... Bear Lake.... Ugh! It just stresses me out and makes me really sad. I don't really know why I lost my job, I mean I do, the company downsized... but I don't know why I had to loose my job.. does that make sense?I just felt so much more secure in that job... made good money and knew that no matter what my boss was 100% willing to work with me, whether it be that I was sick or I needed time to do homework or just needed a day off! Its all just really sucky! Ugh, all I gotta do is make it through these next 2 years and I'll be able to be a teacher! Sometimes I wonder if I've made mistakes in my path.... do you ever feel that way? I mean I know I have definitely made some mistakes in my life.. but I just wonder if I should have left my old job to take the personal assistant job.. I mean I had been there for 3 years... I wasn't going anywhere.. ugh! Man I dont like this feeling of not knowing. Luckily I have some great parents that help me out when I needed it and a great boyfriend who has been great through the whole process. Even though I know it stresses him out that I don't have the best job....
Do you think or look at me like an adult? Because sometimes I don't feel like I am... sometimes I feel like people look at me like I'm a teenager still... maybe it has something to do with the fact that I look like I'm 16, ha! But really... Idk... I think that maybe I'm just having one of those days.
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