Cinderella

****SIGH**** I need a fairy Godmother!

Yes this is how I feel at the moment, well actually its how I've felt for the last like month or so... School is kicking my butt like I never thought it could!!! I don't know how the heck I'm going to make it through 3 more semesters!!! But I gotta! Ha! There is SOOO much to becoming a teacher, its unbelievable. I don't think I've been more stressed out in my life then I feel right now. Between school, work, my family, Chris and his family and me time I pretty much don't have much of anything but school, work and family (Chris' and mine)!!! I think wanting to cry at least once a day is a given these days! Ugh!!
Its one of those things that kind of makes you feel kinda out of the loop on things, like you have lost yourself... you have two goals in life.... one you can see the light at the end of the tunnel, its right there, in reach, just takes a TON of hard work. The other... well sometimes it seems as though it is right there, getting closer, but then other times, most of the time, it seems so far away, practically nonexistent. And you wonder if you are wasting your time... your energy. These two goals are both so important to me, and I want more then anything for them both to happen, one is semi-easily achievable, the other, well not so easy and I can't really achieve it on my own, which is the other stinky part.
Sometimes I don't feel like I can make it, that the goal is so far away and takes so much work that I just don't know if I will be any good at it, if I will be able to do it. I guess we will find out, huh! I heard this song on the radio the other day, its a new song by one of my favorite artists and I want SO badly to play it everyday around me, so that people will know how I feel. Well I know people know how I feel, but sometimes I just don't know what to think, some days I feel good about it, and others I just want to scream "I'M TIRED!!!! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANY LONGER!!!!" But then I think there has to be a light at the end of the tunnel eventually right...?!
Ugh!!! A year and a half, thats all I have to last... just a little longer. I sure hope I can do it... its not easy, but I'm going to hold strong until I get it done!!! There are a few things that I would love to do this year, and hopefully they get done... but we will just have to wait and see if it all happens! I pray that my goals are achieved and that all of my wildest dreams come true!!